i cant move a muscle.im weak.being sick makes u go weak.my hand is numb.my head hurts.i was supposed to go to work at 8 tis morning but i was too sick to get out of bed.it feels cold but warm also.i ate my medicine but its not working.i hate the doctor cos she gave me too little medicine.i need more than a panadol and lozenges.i feel like killing all doctors.but im too weak to grab a knife.god pls help me.

im sick as hell.been a long time since i've been tis kinda sick.and i hate being sick.i hate the long freaking wait for the consultation at the polyclinic.but its cheap.being sick makes me moody and none can make me happy.my throat hurts.im trying not to smoke.its been nearly three days since i touched one.my house is messy and i hate the ants trying to get my food.i have a digicam but i find it of no use.well if ure reading tis i hate u.

ugh..for twice in a row my bro's band didnt have the chance to play..what freaking luck is that?!the previous time was at the la salle gig..and dat also the police bastards came and stopped everything..that i didnt know wat was the real reason..but yest gig was an asshole.the organisor had just planned the permit to be frm 2-8...by then it was 8.30 and my bro was supposedly planned to play at 7!siak geram sak...

i took vid evidence of the police bastards..anyone hu wud want to see them just msg me ok..

well neways..just before the gig i went to buy my very own digicam..its costly but nah doesnt matter..cos i got evidence of the fucking bastards!!!eee geram ako pikirkan pasal gig...well tnx for everyone hu stayed to watch two mins late and didnt get to..im realli sori for u guys cos i gave hope that they're gona have a wonderful time skakin to real ska frm my bro's band..well im sori yeh..again i say fuck that staff seargent!!kulit samer warna tapi treat his own kind like shit!

baru balek dari keje..nak ckp penat..tak sangat la..macam used to it oreadi..hearing my bro's single..so mellow.i start work at 3 tomolo and im going to take out my money no matter wat.im planning to buy a digicam after so long.

okay just now at work was kinda saddening and funny as well..firstly..it was the last day of promotion for chef satish arora's cuisine..so it was kinda sad la after setting up the buffet for him for the past week..the funny part was that..wen i was setting up for dinner buffet..i fell down cos the floor was farking slippery..si izzat nasib baik tak jatoh..but i was the unlucky one..den everyone was like..they stopped werk..turned their heads and paid attention to my fall..haha..so funny..nasib tak angkat barang kaca..kalao tak mati ako kena bayar berpuloh2..just now was the busiest ever day..75 pax lunch..130 pax high tea and 120 pax dinner..makkao bleh mati sak layan orang..and i saw a malay family eating dinner..the father kasi 50 dollar tip sak..makkao ni gerenti orang kaya maner ntah..

cant wait for sat's gig.gona take pix pix pix.hah thats if sempat beli digicam..taa!

ok i have to highlight this..i broke a sideplate!!argh..so kanchiong wen i was doing breafast set up for tomolo..well neways..bingit siak dgn si khofif..dier da la datang lambat..ako nampak dier pat men's changing room at ard 1 plus..but he was supposedly to reach at work by 12..den ako pautoh dier pat manager..manager marah..beh ako da la kena set up high tea buffet sorang..patot si khofif tolong..beh biler high tea..ako dgn si khofif ni station kena station samer2 pat buffet jaga makanan..
so i gave him a hard time ar..cos he gave me a hard time wad rite..den he kanchiong..he broke a dessert plate..den i look at him..told him to rilek ar,takmo kanchiong sangat keje..den u noe wat he said?
'pakcik kao nye laki bodoh rilek..makanan pat lua bnyk kosong beh nak rilek'
at dat part ako macam nak kasikan je xia..makkao darah naik siol keje dgn itu anak sundal..dier da la datang lambat kasi ako bingit beh nak maki ako..kao saper siol baru start keje beh nak maki ako..
nasib kau ako kasi muker ar..kwn keje nye pasal..takot ako buat hal kan..kena buang keje aper keje ako ader nanti..haiz..ni ar cobaan keje..

just heard from my manager that the guest chef at my working place,SATISH AURORA frm india representing taj group of hotels chefs is gona be featured in most of the local newspapers...hey u guys better check it out serious..i tasted he's cooking..its excellent cuisine..and especially the handmade ice cream u cant get anywhere else in singapore..have u heard of tamarind ice cream?or spicy black pepper ice cream?haha..bet not..

well my schedule is out and i'll be working like a dog..12-11,12-11,3-11,3-11,3-11,3-11..sats and sun is my off days..yayy..cant wait to go the gig..and yeah..my bro band got their own cd goin..so if anyone wana have a hear of the limited edition songs page me k?

Vibes 2
Event Date Saturday, 27 March 2004
Description 27/3/04
Kallang Riverside Park
(2pm onwards)

A Losing Streak
2MinsLate
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No Better than You
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ok so my bro's band 2 mins late is gona perform..gota go and see..but first i have to find a replacement at work before i go to the gig..

2004 Joint Admissions Exercise (JAE)

Candidate's Posting Result
Name ZULHILMI B ABDUL WAHAB ID Number S8723515G
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Am i suppose to be happy?i dunno wat to feel.

so yest i woke up fuckin late at 7.10..i was suppose to reach at work ard 7.50..how the hell am i suppose to get to ct hall in time?..sheesh..kena marah..datang lambat..work till 7 at nite..den met the guys at memo..and off we went to the gig..tapi dudok tepi riverside..been a long times since i've seen a whole lot of kids dressing up..its so yesterday..cesspit played alrite..most of the peeps stayed to watch them play..i was having a headache okay!kepala kuz sakits..mabok bnyk sgt orang..and it was stuffy..i guess i was just tired coming back frm work..after the gig ended went home..si kecik kena screen..haha suker xia dier probation dabis..

ok ive been noticing at my workplace..the only customers who comes in to eat are those japanese tourists and both young n old mat sallehs that eat a little but talk so much..its getting kinda irritating..but its nice wen the japs are trying to ask questions in english and i dun even understand a single thing..i'll just go nodding my head and speak perfect sense to them wats wat..

well i just came back home..and i kinda have no mood?cos i've heard that the kids working at my place have been talking behind my back..ako tahu la ako ni budak baru..korang da keje lama..abeh sumer nak attack ako..haiz..kalaolah gaji rendah ako da buang ako nye uniform pat muker manager..

enough about work..tis sat is my day off..dgr dgr ader plan nak gi pancing pat ubin..nta la not confirmed yet..but i hope so ar..its been a long time since i smelt raw fish frm the sea..

ok so i went to ps to watch haunted mansion..its kinda like a family movie where u got out wit ur kids n ur wife to enjoy..cerita dier klakar seram..den after that took train to esplanade..den sit sit..den go to tam lepak..and go home..i start werk at 8 for the rest of the week xcpt on wednesday which i start on 3 and end at 7..haiz..gona take my gaji again one of this days..

seems like i wrote im tired in most of my entries..work really makes u tired..and i woke up at 12 today..whoa..and onli as hour awake at hm n i have to go get ready for work..its been work work work..nuting else..i hate working..im still 17!!and they make me work non stop..sheesh..i have to sort out nxt two weeks schedule..need at least two days off..

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suicide bomber hmm...sumbody quick pass me a bomb la..how to die if no bomb..

haha found a pic....looks so farking posh siak..haha..but in reality..more posh la..ahax..kinda tired..tomoro im starting work at 3..sunday im off!lookin forward to it...

seriously i dunnoe where to start..sheesh..
ok started work at 11..den Mr Alam asked me to do linen..hah..keje rilek..makan gaji buta dua jam..haha..den it was lunch time..so had to do buffet with naufal..den it was high tea..mak ai orang bnyk sia..had to lari sini saner to the demand..
break time..went to canteen..eat all u can..drink till ure bloated..overall tempat gerek..no one can stop u from eating..
most of my colleagues are guys..only two girls..satu ciner satu keling..manager pon baik sia..tak marah pon..
and yah..just now USA secretary of state makan wit sum other ministers frm other countries..den like wah so kecoh..police everywhere..even in the kitchen dorang jaga..
well tomorrow is another day at work.need to have some time out.

did u hear the news.most parts of singapore is flooded..like whoa..its knee deep..just like those olden days..wah..makes me wana go swim..ahax..

sufi

sufi selangkah..tirai kasihmu kubuka
engkau serahkan, cinta..
hingga dirimu, tiada..
kasih sufi.. kau rela pilih derita di dunia
biar rebah dihina kau tak berubah

kau menguasai selautan
yang tersembunyi digenggaman
nasib dan isbah kau sandingkan
sebagai tali pegangan

sufi,kau hilang dipandangan
ada di dalam kenikmatan
engkau dan dia
pasti tidak akan terpisah

andai tertutup tirai sufi
yang terang tidak nampak terang
inilah seksa menyakitkan
sepanjang zaman..

ingin ku ketuk titian mu
dari kekasih ke kekasih
pengabdian ku bersama mu kasih
biar rebah dihina kau tak berubah..

just woke up.today is gpa finals day.wonder which skewl is gona win.i hope its tpjc la..well all the best to them..gona meet the rest at 1 at somerset..anyways today is gaji day..but im strapped for cash..have to take some bux out later..bye!

Does your name begin with: Z
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i read the part where i take pride of oneself.yes i really do.but it got my pizza hut job instead.
anyways time for vrrroom vrrroom to masjid istighfar.

ok so i can say finally im not working in the fast food chain..but still in the food line..just now i went for job interview at raffles hotel..and i got the job as a part time waiter at Tiffin Room..fine dining..all the waiter waitresses wear coats..sheesh..and i start work on monday.

i found this, 'Kiss - A touching Story' ,on the net..a really sad ending..cam nk nangis gitu..alamak zul emo ar!
well i start werk at 4 todae..
yest i asked saiful to take over cos i needed to go to nyp to register for jae..the form has been sent..there nuting much to do xcpt to wait for the posting results this 20th..

my Form A has been filled up.all 12 choices i have picked to be my life changing decision.so here are my choices so as not to forget.lazy to copy down sumwhere else..

1st choice: information technology NYP (C85)
2nd choice: multimedia infocomm technology NYP (C75)
3rd choice: digital media design NYP (C84)
4th choice: biomedical science TP (T31)
5th choice: information technology TP (T30)
6th choice: internet computing TP (T34)
7th choice: biomedical science NP (N59)
8th choice: information technology NP (N54)
9th choice: engineering informatics NP (N62)
10th choice: bio tech & bio med SP (S80)
11h choice: information technology SP (S82)
12th choice: creative media design SP (S93)

i hope i get chosen in one of the choices.if not im gona be dead.pray hard zul.

wow its 3 in the morn n i dont feel ngantok at all.jam badan ako da rosak ar..haiz..im sure wake up 12 in the afternoon..have to go submit my jae form a application later..if not jgn harap ako nak ader skola nanti..giler la!

well jez now was quite smooth day at work.shan came during my break.so i n him had a quiet time n talked.i said i wanted to quit werking at bk n wanted to find work at another place.he said his place handled beer n that sorts.im not sure if i wana work at that kind of environment.but the thing is the pat is twice higher than bk..6 bux!!sounds very appealing and the job is not so stressful..unless during peak period..

i tink im going to my bro's sch.NYP.either IT..MIT or DMD...if not..TP..bio med..IT..IMD...ntah la..

i just woke up after a long resting sleep..slept frm 3 in the afternoon..so damn tired cos i jez came back dari pancing pat coney island..here's how yesterday went..

early in the morn i recieved four missed calls..either frm her n burger king..i was so dazed so i called back..abeh dorang pekik2 suroh datang kejer pasal tak cukop orang..cam maner siak..ako dah lah baru bangun beh kau nak ako pegi keje..and so i siap2 go keje..

keje frm 12 to 4 den lincah2 gi amik joran pat umah ilmi,go home change,den go taxi gi changi village..aufi an madi da nga tungo pat saner..joran dorang sumer besar2 sia..mine was just 3/4 of their size..dorang tak ckp suroh bawak joran besar..kalao tau da bawak..by 5.40 boat tolak gi coney island..there was a lot of peeps there fishin..and so we put our things down beh pasang joran..

the game in fishing is simple..u just wait for your rod to move a muscle n there u have it.a fish.lincah kadok kena tarik kalao tak nanti ikan lari..during the wee hours in the morning..we had totally nuting else to do..satu satu tgk hp tgk nombo saper bleh dikacau..aufi bobal dgn pompan beh kena kacau dgn kiter sumer..haha

by sunrise..it was getting hotter..u can really feel the heat there..cannot stay in the sun too long or u'll get burnt..three times my line putus..punyerlah bingit..tiga buah ladong ako hilang..beh bell pon hilang..tapi takper..4 ikan pari dgn 2 ikan duri dapat pon gerek uh..

at ten plus the boat arrived n we we on our way back to changi village..naik taxi beh balek satu satu umah..i went to her house fer awhile..den i went home.